I am timid
And I am oversensitive
I am a lioness
I am tired and defensive
You take me in your arms
And I fold into you
I have insecurities
You show me I am beautiful
Love me or leave me just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy just need you to see me
Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending
I am temperamental
And I have imperfections
And I am emotional
I am unpredictable
I am naked
I am vulnerable
I am a woman
I am opening up to you
Love me or leave me, just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy, just need you to see me
Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending
Now I stand before you with my heart in my hands
I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am
Please lay down your arms
Do you know me?
Make me feel safe from harm
Oh just take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending
I am temperamental
And I have imperfections
And I am emotional
There'll be no more pretending
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Love
Love is a funny thing, maybe because love is something that is a little bit different to every person. I am not going to claim to be an authority on love, because certainly I am not one. I have always felt that we learn about love from those around us and from what we feel deep down inside. Love is a tricky thing and many other things can disguise themselves as love. Yes I have been in love and it was a painful experience that I would not trade for anything in the world. That experience taught me what love should and shouldn't be. My parents have been a great example of how it isn't just about love, there is so much more than that. Love will not carry you through the hard times. It is knowing that person through and through, and knowing that no matter what that person will be there to walk through it with you. Now love is the foundation which everything is built. But it is through love that you will want to grow and change together even though you might grow and change in different ways. Now I know that some people may be reading this saying that I have no idea what I am talking about because I am not married nor am I currently in a committed relationship. But I have been stumbling through the whole dating thing for awhile so I do have some idea.
My mother told me on more than one occasion that I love too much or too hard some might say. I must say that I agree, I love everyone in my life that I am close with and along comes with that high expectations. With high expectations there is no where to go but to be let down. I am not saying that my friends let me down because that is not the case, what I am saying is that I break easily. I am much more fragile than I let on, I reserve a lot of those moments for behind close doors. Having been the strong one for so long it is hard to let people down in that area. My mother was also right about every single person i dated, there is something to be said for what your parents or family have to say about the person you are dating. i am not saying they are the finally authority, but sometimes parents just know. My dad often says I need someone who is not afraid to tell me to shut up, because as you can see from my blog I talk a little too much. Doesn't my father sound so encouraging haha he is great and hilarious!
As a girl though I have had to over come the romantic comedy idea of love. I mean don't get me wrong I love a good rom com but they are terrible for setting the bar to high for men. There is no way some guy is going to be able to fulfill everything that a rom com sets up in our minds, it is terribly wrong. Relationships are not all warm and fuzzy. There are arguments and misunderstandings but to me it is the knowing that you can get past it because that person is your best friend. To me at least I feel there needs to be some level of this person is my best friend. The person that you feel that you can tell everything and won't judge you and maybe will just chuckle at your misfortune a little. Lets be honest we all need a little laughter and I of all people need someone who will laugh at my misfortunes because they get pretty hysterical.
How do you know if you have been in love, well it is something that you can't really describe. If ever asked the question have you been in love, it is a yes or no answer if you have to think about it then well it wasn't love. Love isn't always instant, sometimes love blooms from something years in the making. That does not mean I don't believe in love in first sight some people certainly find this. In my mind when you get to know someone is when you can start loving them when you get to know what their favorite things are or what annoys you about them. It's the little things to me that love comes from. It's being able to tell when someone has had a bad day or to just go and give that person a hug because words are not needed. For me it is not asking the person I am with to give up the things they love. You want to go do something or go to the movies with the boys well then go and do it have a good time.
Some of my friends have found their matches and I am thrilled for them it is great to see that light in their eyes or to listen to them talk about that person. One of my very good friends is getting married this weekend in Florida and I am terribly upset that I am going to miss it. She is a person that I just clicked with instantly and we just understood one another. She is my LL and I wish her and her future hubby to be all the love in the world!
Love is hard work but it is fun to stumble through it with that one person!
I know I was a tad sappy and cynical but recents events with people close to me have forced me to sit down and really think about what love is to me and what I want out of love not only for myself but from anyone that I am dating.
Till Next Time!
Meg
My mother told me on more than one occasion that I love too much or too hard some might say. I must say that I agree, I love everyone in my life that I am close with and along comes with that high expectations. With high expectations there is no where to go but to be let down. I am not saying that my friends let me down because that is not the case, what I am saying is that I break easily. I am much more fragile than I let on, I reserve a lot of those moments for behind close doors. Having been the strong one for so long it is hard to let people down in that area. My mother was also right about every single person i dated, there is something to be said for what your parents or family have to say about the person you are dating. i am not saying they are the finally authority, but sometimes parents just know. My dad often says I need someone who is not afraid to tell me to shut up, because as you can see from my blog I talk a little too much. Doesn't my father sound so encouraging haha he is great and hilarious!
As a girl though I have had to over come the romantic comedy idea of love. I mean don't get me wrong I love a good rom com but they are terrible for setting the bar to high for men. There is no way some guy is going to be able to fulfill everything that a rom com sets up in our minds, it is terribly wrong. Relationships are not all warm and fuzzy. There are arguments and misunderstandings but to me it is the knowing that you can get past it because that person is your best friend. To me at least I feel there needs to be some level of this person is my best friend. The person that you feel that you can tell everything and won't judge you and maybe will just chuckle at your misfortune a little. Lets be honest we all need a little laughter and I of all people need someone who will laugh at my misfortunes because they get pretty hysterical.
How do you know if you have been in love, well it is something that you can't really describe. If ever asked the question have you been in love, it is a yes or no answer if you have to think about it then well it wasn't love. Love isn't always instant, sometimes love blooms from something years in the making. That does not mean I don't believe in love in first sight some people certainly find this. In my mind when you get to know someone is when you can start loving them when you get to know what their favorite things are or what annoys you about them. It's the little things to me that love comes from. It's being able to tell when someone has had a bad day or to just go and give that person a hug because words are not needed. For me it is not asking the person I am with to give up the things they love. You want to go do something or go to the movies with the boys well then go and do it have a good time.
Some of my friends have found their matches and I am thrilled for them it is great to see that light in their eyes or to listen to them talk about that person. One of my very good friends is getting married this weekend in Florida and I am terribly upset that I am going to miss it. She is a person that I just clicked with instantly and we just understood one another. She is my LL and I wish her and her future hubby to be all the love in the world!
Love is hard work but it is fun to stumble through it with that one person!
I know I was a tad sappy and cynical but recents events with people close to me have forced me to sit down and really think about what love is to me and what I want out of love not only for myself but from anyone that I am dating.
Till Next Time!
Meg
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Work
Sorry for the gap in posting I have hit the fall busy time for me! On that theme though something that really digs under my skin is peoples ambivalence towards my job. I love my job, I love the work and I love the people I work with. I will never name the company or what we do because there is a certain anonymity that should be kept. I do work in meetings though. What I do not appreciate is peoples inability to realize how hard I work or how hard my job can be.
It seems that a lot of people in my life seem to think that I do fluff work and that they could easily do my job. This hurts me because I have worked hard to be where I am today and I am still working hard to move forward and grow in my industry. I wish the nay sayers would walk a day in my shoes. It is hard to have to spend 5 days and constantly be on when I am at a meeting. What do I mean by this is that I am working 12 hour days and I do not have the ability to not smile or appear to feel like crap when sick. Even when the work day is over I am not done working because I am surrounded 24/7 by clients and I must always appear to be on my game. Now it might sound like I do not like my job but that is not that case. I love being able to meet my clients and be surrounded by the madness but it takes a certain personality to do this. This past conference was hard because I had a cold and it is hard to appear happy or perky when you feel like death but you just work through it. I guess the thing that weighs on my mind is when people say wow your job cant be that hard. Well guess what folks I have my downtime which can be a month or two at a time but when I have 5 meetings within three months there is no downtime, there is only working all day long and the distinct possibility of working all night as well. When we are busy we are all working hard. I love my bosses because they put in insane hours and I admire that they have been doing this job for so long and still love it. They give me the strength and the guidance to keep going but also tell me when I need to slow down and take a day to get better.
I guess all I want is the people in my life to say you know what you do work hard, I am sorry I think that your job is just fluff. I am not trying to say that my job is any harder than everyone else because I know that is not the case. All I want is some recognition that my job actually requires some skill and to not hear well you work in meetings that is just the fun stuff right? It's not trust me but all I want is a little respect. I try to give respect to everyone and what they do because a quarter of the time I know that I could probably not do their job. So all I ask is that people extend the same courtesy to me.
Sorry for the rant but after working two weeks straight I am sleep deprived and sick. I am off to bed and I promise a much more fun and upbeat posting tomorrow!
Till next time!
Meg
It seems that a lot of people in my life seem to think that I do fluff work and that they could easily do my job. This hurts me because I have worked hard to be where I am today and I am still working hard to move forward and grow in my industry. I wish the nay sayers would walk a day in my shoes. It is hard to have to spend 5 days and constantly be on when I am at a meeting. What do I mean by this is that I am working 12 hour days and I do not have the ability to not smile or appear to feel like crap when sick. Even when the work day is over I am not done working because I am surrounded 24/7 by clients and I must always appear to be on my game. Now it might sound like I do not like my job but that is not that case. I love being able to meet my clients and be surrounded by the madness but it takes a certain personality to do this. This past conference was hard because I had a cold and it is hard to appear happy or perky when you feel like death but you just work through it. I guess the thing that weighs on my mind is when people say wow your job cant be that hard. Well guess what folks I have my downtime which can be a month or two at a time but when I have 5 meetings within three months there is no downtime, there is only working all day long and the distinct possibility of working all night as well. When we are busy we are all working hard. I love my bosses because they put in insane hours and I admire that they have been doing this job for so long and still love it. They give me the strength and the guidance to keep going but also tell me when I need to slow down and take a day to get better.
I guess all I want is the people in my life to say you know what you do work hard, I am sorry I think that your job is just fluff. I am not trying to say that my job is any harder than everyone else because I know that is not the case. All I want is some recognition that my job actually requires some skill and to not hear well you work in meetings that is just the fun stuff right? It's not trust me but all I want is a little respect. I try to give respect to everyone and what they do because a quarter of the time I know that I could probably not do their job. So all I ask is that people extend the same courtesy to me.
Sorry for the rant but after working two weeks straight I am sleep deprived and sick. I am off to bed and I promise a much more fun and upbeat posting tomorrow!
Till next time!
Meg
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